These past few days I have been thinking about getting stronger in my yoga practice. But then I started questioning myself on circumstances of my everyday life. As with my practice, this one transcends the mat.
I’ve always wondered if strength can be taught. How does one encourage oneself to become that strong person? Is it mainly a personal attribute or personality trait? Something you are born with perhaps. How do you learn to be strong when you don’t possess this quality naturally?
Is the path always going to be so hard?
And if you can’t motivate yourself enough to be strong, will it mean that you have failed? Will it mean that you won’t get any stronger because you didn’t take yourself “there”?
My personal philosophy in life is this: Everything can be learned. By the self. Thru the self. Through experiences, circumstances, immediate environment. By fate. By faith. But this strength thing, this letting go of the fear, is becoming a lesson that’s so hard to instill in myself. If this was a school, I was barely getting by this course.
How do you teach yourself?
Is it going to be a major “Fake it til you make it” project for me to make for your own?
I hope there’s a manual for these things. I love learning, and I love and respect the process. But when frustration sets in, you just want to set things in motion already. Expedite the process. Because it is necessary and needed. As soon as possible. Sometimes I think this impatience can take me “there”, but then again, will the quality be enough? Will I be able to maintain it? I’ve learned that things gained through fast and easy means are short-lived and valued less because they feel “instant, given and automatic”. Talk about being entitled. But none of that. I think I’m just being real. And it’s human nature to take things for granted anyway. (Although I hope it weren’t so)
Til I know the answers, the process ensues. Maybe in time. I hope it will be worth it.